We can all agree that self-confidence is essential to living a fulfilled life, but life really sucks sometimes and we lose it, bigtime! Does this mean we are losing at life?
When people talked about being self-conscious as teenagers, I just didn’t get it. I didn’t have great skin or look good, I was skinny with ‘rashes’ on my face with medium-length hair, but I didn’t care. Academically, I was doing well-ish.
My point is, I was your average girl, just swimming in the middle of the masses.
So, the concept of self-confidence was like Greek. It was beautiful, but incomprehensible to me.
I didn’t quite get why having acne or being fat or skinny would make someone feel bad about themselves, I just thought, it is not that deep, biko.
Fast forward years later, I finally struggled with the issue.
In 2016 and early in 2017, I felt rather bleh without even realizing so, until afterwards. My parents noticed, and asked me if I was depressed (I probably was, but I said no multiple times, of course).
I was going through a thoroughly disheartening emotional time which infiltrated my physical. I don’t even know how or from whence it came.
For a while, I felt ugly.
Oh yes, like a face-rash-ridden-skinny-ugly-somebody. To make it worse, my previously thriving hair refused to keep growing. It was around this time that I finally had to come to terms with the fact that I could not have a first class degree after wanting it for so long and I messed up two important relationships.
Moving to 2018, I went through a second bout of this dearth of self-confidence, but due to physical reasons. I used a skincare product that left me with a really bad facial allergic reaction and the ugly feeling came back, even worse.
I was angry, ashamed, in despair; you name it, I felt it. Eventually, I came to realize that I needed to go through that, and quite honestly, I believe you need it too. Well, your own version though.
Here are the absolute reasons why;